Life

Ok, I've been MIA for quite a while according to the last post date. Didn't realize time had gotten away from me so fast. Let me just say, having two kids definitely takes a lot more time than one 6yo. I feel like a run all day with the two of them.



Let's start back on our vacation trip to Pa. Very nice, we actually had pretty good weather, and didn't do anything spectacular. I got really lazy, I'm talking really lazy, which seemed to be ok with Liv, she's just satisfied to be at the Grandparents house. I knew that once we got back, there would be no "being lazy" anymore, so I took advantage of it. I always figure the more time we can spend with our Pa. family the more my children get to know about them. So we hung out at the house and spent time with them. We had to come home one day early because Liv was starting Cheer leading. While we were there Logan started shaking his head "no" when you would say ,"no, no, no , no ,no" to him, which probably comes from me telling him that when he thinks it's so funny to pull hair. He also decided once again to cut teeth while we were there. I even looked right at the Oral Gel when I packed and thought I wouldn't need it, for what??? So, he cut two eye teeth on top at the same time, so when we go to Pa. apparently he will get new teeth. He wasn't as bad though as with the top teeth he cut the last trip.



We got home and the next day Olivia had Cheer leading fitting for their outfits and etc. She was excited and so was I for her. The next day they had cheer camp for 4hrs. in the heat and I wasn't sure that was going to go well at all. Luckily, 4 other girls she went to K with were there too and one she hung around with that was in her class, so she was over the moon with it. She wanted everyone to know she was now officially a CHEERLEADER. It was nice that she enjoyed something so much. The first set of practices are tonight, and she's still excited!!



We also found out while we were gone that they will be closing her elementary school. They are in financial difficulty here with the way they fund the schools, so now we have to start all over this year............can you hear my frustration!! After last year and thinking this year would be sooooooo much smoother since she knew the teachers, school, kids, principal, this year would be a breeze..........not so much. Needless to say, I'm not looking to the first WEEK of school.



This time a year ago, I was sitting in seclusion of the hospital. Pretty much stir crazy at the moment. It all started July 28. We did not know if Logan was A. a boy, B. healthy enough to live outside of the womb, C. or had Downs.......we did not know much about this little guy, except he was coming out one day. I remember it quit well as if it were yesterday.............sitting (laying) in that hospital wondering what I could do next. You couldn't read, cause you couldn't concentrate enough, you couldn't sleep (everybody knows you don't sleep in the hospital), you couldn't even go to the bathroom very long. I was hooked up to the fetal monitor and once he came off, here they would come! I felt like I was in prison, hadn't smelled outside air the whole time. It is was sunny and hot. I remember praying for rainy days, so I wouldn't miss so many nice days. After a while every time someone would come and visit it got horrible b/c they would leave and I couldn't. Then there was Olivia coping with not having me at home and her routine being turned upside down in literally one day. I cried, I cried a whole lot. Morning, afternoon, and night, it hurt so bad and there was nothing I could do about it. The not knowing when he was coming into this world was the worst. Any day, any time, nobody knew for sure. You have no idea how that felt until you have done it yourself. I just knew it would not be when Rich was there vi siting to make life simple and he would be there, no of course it couldn't happen like that and it didn't. I was so scared when they said it was time and his heart rate dropped and wouldn't come back up. A part of me, for maybe literally 1 second felt relieved that it was finally going to end, then came the fear of "oh crap, we are really doing this". There is not a more fearful experience than being wheeled down the hall and knowing what is going to happen next. It was so fast, so many people and right now. There I was, naked from the waist down, with a ton of people in there and nobody I knew. I just thought I would die, seriously, die. The last words I remember were "scalpel" and that was it until I woke up without any drugs cause apparently they were expired and they were a little slow getting them to the room..........let me tell you, pain like you've never felt. So there it was, done, over with, Logan was doing fine and off to Children's he went. I had a baby, but didn't have a baby.

So continued our journey of 6 weeks of NICU, we did not know what to expect, went in it totally blind. We now know a lot, and we know what other parents are going through when we see them, and need I say, A Wonderful Little *(Healthy) Boy!! What a year it has been as we prepare for Birthday #1. It's hard to believe it's been that long already and how far we come, but he's happy to be with us and God has blessed us with a beautiful family, long road, but we made it! A long the way, he taught me to not take things for granted b/c they can be taken away so quickly..............

********Olivia told me the other day that she could speak duck??? I laughed (b/c what else do you do) and she said, "When I yelled quack, quack at them by the lake, they moved off the path, I never knew I could speak duck mom". No one pays me to do this job, but getting paid by a laugh once in a while makes it all worth while.

Olivia also had her place in the spotlight over the weekend with the Bicentennial. Her picture will be placed in the capsule and buried. A small piece of history for our family....................